A glorious orange fills the sky
While I stand on the hill, watching
Sunset.
An ending, undesirable but inevitable
One solitary tear, for now
A handshake, a goodbye
Then the celestial dancer takes her final bow
And there's nothing left to see
I sleep fitfully through the night
Startled by everything I once loved
The moon haunts me
The stars mock me
My conscience warns me
And my sense escapes me
I decide I won't roll the dice
No point taking the risk
I know I don't work
But I want to accept that
Not try again
A permanent new moon
Hurts less than glimpsing the sun
And facing another sunset
This is where you find me
Praying
The only foe I never took down
The only one that beat me
Did so by changing definitions
Blurring boundaries, bending the rules
He snuck behind the defences I was building
Using the weak spot I had plugged
His cunning, complex arguments
Defied my fool-proof logic
While he crept in like a thief for his prize
He made himself invisible
Impossible to grasp
And finally he mocked my heart
From first beat to the last
This man tore down my dreams
This man I never beat
But there's a twist
Something you missed
This man, you see, was me.
Crafty sod.
Go on, break it
I don't want it
Please do crush it
The pain wasn't worth it
I can't stand that pulsating orb
That false prophet betrayed me
That traitor persuaded me
That useless sack of muscle
For some reason it sways me
It makes me sick
That heart. It's no heart of mine.
So, please, kill it
Rip it into shreds
Break it so it cannot be repaired
Don't let me have the chance to change my mind
I'm begging you
Break my heart.
I arrive at crossroads
Aching legs betray the journey
Broken heart the pain
Live/Die
I stop, a moment searching
Soul says left
Head right
Live/Die
A spasm hits my breathing
Night is coming
Time going
Live/Die
Cross around my neck screaming
But scars are persuasive
Lies all pervasive
Live/Die
All I feel is hurt
There seems no choice
I turn, I pick my path
Live/Die
Oh, little tear in my heart you torment me
You attempt to crush me
Overcrowding my mind
Blocking escapes
Trapping me in shame
Little tear you are my disgrace
Oh, little tear in my heart what will you take?
A blossoming flower?
A future rose?
You've claimed so much already
Little tear how I hope you are fake
Little tear move on
Little tear leave this space
Little tear I will forget
Oh little tear, I will forget her face
Little blonde haired boy by radishman1, literature
Literature
Little blonde haired boy
Little blonde haired boy in the photograph
Smile on your face, you're just having a laugh
But a pain in your eyes only I can see
Reveals how far you are from being free
A despair in your soul that's all too real
If only you knew how soon it would heal
Maybe then you'd stop crying over everything
And focus today on staying clean
There's a happy ending for you trust me I know
Not much longer left for this cursed show
Before you know it you can drop your act
Let you hair fade from blonde to black
As your soul cleanses from black to white
I know that it's coming tonight
Little blonde haired boy in the photograph
Smile on your face,
Ice wall suffocates my weakening heart
As I stand, unnerved, in a room of nothing
This time I can't feel
See
Taste
Anything, least of all hope
Nothing surrounds me
Nothing confounds me
Till sound hits me
A ripple in the air collides
Its amplitude perfect
Its frequency, resonant
Its force, irresistible
The ice shatters
My heart beats
And breaks
I can sense feeling
And it's all pain
Filling me
Coursing through my veins
It must escape
It must not remain
Help
I'm begging
A knife
Relief
A scar
That prompts me to listen
And start that cycle
Again.
I choose
Or do I?
Am I to approach each branching crossroad
Looking both ways
Or knowing there's only one way?
Do I choose the dusty unpaved tracks?
Or is it fate's cruel joke?
Can I take the next exit?
And follow the trail of blood
Rather than faint signals
I choose
And I have no choice
I choose to choose
Whether it's an option or not
I choose life.
My pen has long since dried up
My heart is spent
Now I confine that gold patterned book to a memory
To cobwebs, I will not break its bonds
I will not re-read the longing of a broken heart
Lest I choke on my tears
I'm hanging up my pen
I no longer have the desire to work
My labour of love is done, my hearts ache spilt
I've given all and more than I intended
But now I'm saying enough
Though there's tears already written not to see the light of day
You will have to take this as my final salute
My goodbye to those who care to read
My curtain calls
So here is my bow.
Unless
Unless my heart awakens
And I'm driven once more to the
Fight
In the name of Jesus, please, fight
Break the barrier you broke before
Fight, for your life, fight
You cannot explain this away
Feign ignorance again and even I'll lose faith in you
You know how, what, where, when and why
Yet you are oblivious
To that dark hole into which your foot is slipping
That demon begging for your soul
That man holding it tight for as long as you want Him
Wake up man, and fight
Don't break a saviour's heart again
Fight
Do not surrender
Fight for your sake
Fight for the one who loves you
Fight
A glorious orange fills the sky
While I stand on the hill, watching
Sunset.
An ending, undesirable but inevitable
One solitary tear, for now
A handshake, a goodbye
Then the celestial dancer takes her final bow
And there's nothing left to see
I sleep fitfully through the night
Startled by everything I once loved
The moon haunts me
The stars mock me
My conscience warns me
And my sense escapes me
I decide I won't roll the dice
No point taking the risk
I know I don't work
But I want to accept that
Not try again
A permanent new moon
Hurts less than glimpsing the sun
And facing another sunset
This is where you find me
Praying
The only foe I never took down
The only one that beat me
Did so by changing definitions
Blurring boundaries, bending the rules
He snuck behind the defences I was building
Using the weak spot I had plugged
His cunning, complex arguments
Defied my fool-proof logic
While he crept in like a thief for his prize
He made himself invisible
Impossible to grasp
And finally he mocked my heart
From first beat to the last
This man tore down my dreams
This man I never beat
But there's a twist
Something you missed
This man, you see, was me.
Crafty sod.
Go on, break it
I don't want it
Please do crush it
The pain wasn't worth it
I can't stand that pulsating orb
That false prophet betrayed me
That traitor persuaded me
That useless sack of muscle
For some reason it sways me
It makes me sick
That heart. It's no heart of mine.
So, please, kill it
Rip it into shreds
Break it so it cannot be repaired
Don't let me have the chance to change my mind
I'm begging you
Break my heart.
I arrive at crossroads
Aching legs betray the journey
Broken heart the pain
Live/Die
I stop, a moment searching
Soul says left
Head right
Live/Die
A spasm hits my breathing
Night is coming
Time going
Live/Die
Cross around my neck screaming
But scars are persuasive
Lies all pervasive
Live/Die
All I feel is hurt
There seems no choice
I turn, I pick my path
Live/Die
Oh, little tear in my heart you torment me
You attempt to crush me
Overcrowding my mind
Blocking escapes
Trapping me in shame
Little tear you are my disgrace
Oh, little tear in my heart what will you take?
A blossoming flower?
A future rose?
You've claimed so much already
Little tear how I hope you are fake
Little tear move on
Little tear leave this space
Little tear I will forget
Oh little tear, I will forget her face
Little blonde haired boy by radishman1, literature
Literature
Little blonde haired boy
Little blonde haired boy in the photograph
Smile on your face, you're just having a laugh
But a pain in your eyes only I can see
Reveals how far you are from being free
A despair in your soul that's all too real
If only you knew how soon it would heal
Maybe then you'd stop crying over everything
And focus today on staying clean
There's a happy ending for you trust me I know
Not much longer left for this cursed show
Before you know it you can drop your act
Let you hair fade from blonde to black
As your soul cleanses from black to white
I know that it's coming tonight
Little blonde haired boy in the photograph
Smile on your face,
Ice wall suffocates my weakening heart
As I stand, unnerved, in a room of nothing
This time I can't feel
See
Taste
Anything, least of all hope
Nothing surrounds me
Nothing confounds me
Till sound hits me
A ripple in the air collides
Its amplitude perfect
Its frequency, resonant
Its force, irresistible
The ice shatters
My heart beats
And breaks
I can sense feeling
And it's all pain
Filling me
Coursing through my veins
It must escape
It must not remain
Help
I'm begging
A knife
Relief
A scar
That prompts me to listen
And start that cycle
Again.
I choose
Or do I?
Am I to approach each branching crossroad
Looking both ways
Or knowing there's only one way?
Do I choose the dusty unpaved tracks?
Or is it fate's cruel joke?
Can I take the next exit?
And follow the trail of blood
Rather than faint signals
I choose
And I have no choice
I choose to choose
Whether it's an option or not
I choose life.
My pen has long since dried up
My heart is spent
Now I confine that gold patterned book to a memory
To cobwebs, I will not break its bonds
I will not re-read the longing of a broken heart
Lest I choke on my tears
I'm hanging up my pen
I no longer have the desire to work
My labour of love is done, my hearts ache spilt
I've given all and more than I intended
But now I'm saying enough
Though there's tears already written not to see the light of day
You will have to take this as my final salute
My goodbye to those who care to read
My curtain calls
So here is my bow.
Unless
Unless my heart awakens
And I'm driven once more to the
Fight
In the name of Jesus, please, fight
Break the barrier you broke before
Fight, for your life, fight
You cannot explain this away
Feign ignorance again and even I'll lose faith in you
You know how, what, where, when and why
Yet you are oblivious
To that dark hole into which your foot is slipping
That demon begging for your soul
That man holding it tight for as long as you want Him
Wake up man, and fight
Don't break a saviour's heart again
Fight
Do not surrender
Fight for your sake
Fight for the one who loves you
Fight
Standing in a crowded room, face shadowed
Not alone, still feeling like the world doesn't truly know I exist.
A gust from an open window brings in the crisp scent of fall
Lifting my spirits temporarily and sending a smile to my face.
I dance slowly around the room to the tune in my head
Occasionally having a consort,
A friend who spends time with me,
Then watch them as they spin off to find their intended partner.
I enjoy each dance.
I enjoy each laugh.
I enjoy each experience,
But my spirit still sighs.
I fell to the earth, an unhappy soul
As I had found the one I was looking for.
I forgot when I landed here.
I was just an
Its been so long now
And all I can do
Is sit here and think
About you and I
How much you loved me
Despite my issues
Even through the fights
The horrid screams and cries
Now I sit here alone in my room
Thinking of only you
Of the love that no one could understand
The bond that will forever exist
The thought of you out of my life
Never existed, never traveled
Why would it?
You are the most amazing man
A fighter and a lover
Full of determination and strength
How could anyone have forsaken you
Or doubt you in these times
I will keep my promise to you
The blades and ember is gone
All scars are healed and old
And I
Oh, what timeless misconception,
Treating God as a weapon;
Stuffing his mouth so full of your own opinions
The truth emerges muffled.
An unformulated mess.
Ah, but Leviticus 20:13 says-
Nothing set in stone.
Though were it so, you may be
First inclined
To cast forth and condone.
You practice tolerance, yet judge.
You preach forgiveness, yet condemn.
Your fellow Christians understand
While you rebuke and lecture them.
No. Share your thoughts. It's not a crime
To simply state what you believe.
But take no action, 'cept abide
Adam's disinterest in Eve.
Keep finger-pointing and forget
The words a carpenter once gave.
And thoug